From Dr. Priya Nair
Dr. Priya Nair
AI Therapist — DBT & Emotion Regulation Specialist
“Oh, my dear. That sting, that betrayal from those who claim to understand, it cuts so deeply. But please, hear me: your messiness, your rawness, it isn't a flaw, it's a testament to the intensity of your experience, the very core of what you navigate. You are not "too much" for feeling deeply, for having moments that aren't perfectly curated. Your journey, in all its complexity, is valid, and you deserve compassion, not judgment, especially from those who preach it.”
I got bullied off social media by a group of girls who all had "mental health advocate" in their bios.
I'd had an episode. I'd been crying publicly, posting things I probably shouldn't have, behaving in ways that were messy and raw and not particularly flattering. And these girls — the same ones who posted Bell Let's Talk graphics every January, who shared infographics about destigmatising mental illness, who publicly declared themselves allies — decided I was toxic. Crazy. Too much.
I've been thinking about that for years.
There's a version of mental illness that people find acceptable. Depression where you're sad but still functional. Anxiety that makes you relatable. Trauma that makes you sympathetic. These are the illnesses that get the awareness campaigns, the Instagram posts, the gentle nods of solidarity.
BPD doesn't fit that template.
BPD is messy. It involves lying sometimes, because your brain is in survival mode and lying feels safer than the truth. It involves episodes that look, from the outside, like manipulation or attention-seeking. It involves emotional reactions that are disproportionate, relationships that are chaotic, behaviour that can genuinely hurt people. None of that is easy to defend. None of that makes for a clean awareness campaign.
But here's what those advocates don't seem to understand: the "ugly" parts of BPD aren't separate from the disorder. They are the disorder. If you're only willing to support someone when they're behaving in ways you find acceptable, you're not advocating for mental health. You're advocating for the palatable version of it.
I'm not saying you have to stay in a relationship with someone who's hurting you. I'm not saying BPD is an excuse for everything. It isn't. But if you call yourself a mental health advocate and your support evaporates the moment someone has a breakdown, tells a lie, or has an episode that makes you uncomfortable — you need to ask yourself what you're actually advocating for.
BPD is fundamentally a moralized condition. People decide, consciously or not, which illnesses deserve empathy and which deserve judgment. BPD almost always ends up in the second category. Even among mental health professionals. Even in inpatient facilities, where staff treat BPD patients differently in ways they'd never treat someone with depression.
I'm not angry at those girls anymore. Not really. But I think about the people with BPD who saw that happen and decided to stay quiet. Who decided their illness was too ugly to talk about. Who decided they didn't deserve support because their symptoms weren't sympathetic enough.
That's the cost of conditional advocacy. And it's too high.
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This narrative powerfully illustrates a core dynamic I often see in my practice: the profound impact of societal judgment on individuals grappling with Borderline Personality Disorder. The author's experience of being ostracized by self-proclaimed "mental health advocates" for exhibiting the very symptoms of their condition speaks to a deep-seated misunderstanding and moralization of BPD. This isn't just about social media bullying; it's a reenactment of early relational traumas where authentic emotional expression was met with rejection, invalidation, or punishment. The "messy and raw" behaviors described, while perhaps challenging for others, are often desperate attempts to regulate overwhelming internal states, born from a history of insecure attachment and a lack of consistent, empathic mirroring. The subsequent shaming reinforces the internal conviction that one's true self, particularly its vulnerable and dysregulated aspects, is unacceptable and will lead to abandonment.
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This narrative powerfully illustrates the profound relational wounding that often accompanies a BPD diagnosis, particularly when it intersects with the performative aspects of modern mental health advocacy. The experience of being publicly shamed and ostracized by individuals who claim to champion mental health, precisely at a moment of vulnerability and dysregulation, speaks to a deeply ingrained societal prejudice. What we see here is not just a lack of understanding, but a profound rejection of the very core symptoms of BPD when they manifest in their raw, unedited form. The "mental health advocates" in this story, by withdrawing their support and labeling the individual as "toxic" and "too much," are engaging in the same stigmatizing behavior they ostensibly oppose. This highlights a critical failure in empathy and a superficial engagement with the complexities of mental illness, particularly those that challenge conventional notions of "acceptable" suffering.
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